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i'm not here to win
i'm here to leave a legacy
it's the passion that drives you
endorphins
pain
exhaustion
chasing this insane dream
perfection
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cny has been a little too hectic for my liking so far...
weight gain was inevitable but i think i offset it almost completely with the runs. though i feel fatter cos of all the high fat content food i've been been eating.. i ate prata for the first time in a few years (i kid you not) on weds at the buffet. buffets are horrible monsters btw. i also tried some LAKSAAAA. and pineapple tarts. and love letters. i think that cost me 1 month of my life. haha. but the length of my life doesn't concern me. it's more of the effect it'll have on my appearance and performance.
speaking of performance... i have come to the conclusion that i hate running competitions. as in running on it's own without swimming or biking. so things like x-ctry or track would come under that category. i DETEST IT. like mad. it makes me want to bang my head on the wall and cry. i mean.. too much speed work and fast twitch required. i need my long runs. my low-intensity-sustained-for-hours kind of exercise. thinking back, i cannot even comprehend why i enjoyed xctry and mid d track back in pri sch and lower sec. or maybe i'm just spoiled by the joy of triathlon (:
yah. but i HATE SPEED WORK. yuck.
family is shrinking...FAST. Pam left on an A380 (with special access to a VIP buffet in the first class lounge?! iamsojealous) yesterday. Pence is leaving next week. sighz. so sad. so very very sad. Terry is so caught up in work and his "CCA" that i rarely see him around anymore. even though we live in the same house.
went to watch RAMBO 4 with the family today. it was. so. so. so. gruesome. like OMGpleasedontwatchunlessyouaremad kind of gruesome. luckily i had my file with me so i was able to shield my eyes from the super gross images. think i spent a third of the film with my face covered. educational yes but .. my eyes aint strong enough for these things. glad daddy and mummy and penny seemed to enjoy it.
mini gathering with fangfish, qing, dee and qianling was so great. ahhhh. i miss them so much :( hahaha qing asked if we SANG THE NATL ANTHEM IN CHINESE. HAHAHAA. aye i miss them a lot... but dee said we can study date in the future! so yay for that. was reminded of the stupid things i did in sec sch.. lol. too embarassing to mention here. too bad sian and joops couldn't make it :( thanks to qing's advice i think i'm gonna start "dating" lipsey and sloman.
SO MANY TESTS NEXT WEEK. i am tired and i need new brains. because i am a futuristic person, i have thought of 3 things i want to do before i am 25:
1. train for and complete a full ironman in a decent timing (and in the process losing tonnes of weight yay)
2. find purpose in life
3. find a job i love and enjoy and earn decent money (so i can live in my dream house before i'm 30)
hopefully these 3 things shall keep me going.......
i really cannot wait for xctry to be over..... :(
TIME TO SLEEP. note to self: WORK FASTER YOU ARE A SLOW POKE.